For years I was. Most of the time without being aware of it, as my internal dialog over the years had reached a sustained state of weakness and destruction. I was used to that state and simply didn’t knew that it could be otherwise.
One day while I was practicing yoga poses, my teacher told me to lift up higher, and it that exact moment it was as though I could hear my inner dialog clearer than ever. I was telling myself that I simply couldn’t do that pose, that my thighs was to heavy, my arms to short and my muscles to weak.
I had been working on gaining more strength as I needed it to balance out the level of my flexibility. And then quite chocking and ironically I found myself wasting most of my energy keeping myself down.
I bursted into laughter. It was a profound and very insightful moment, that later one made me realize how I, not only on the mat but in life as general, was criticizing and disempowering myself.
Oh yes, there was a lot to work on. Over time I managed to transform it and ended up figuring out that I’m actually quite strong. As soon as I don’t waste my energy keeping myself down, I have tremendous strength.
Today I’m staying conscious aware of my inner dialog, and whenever I find myself criticizing, compromising or complicating things, I’ll look within and work on the internal levels.
I’ve seen which enormous power our internal dialog and self-images holds. And I’ve personally discovered that we can do the unthinkable. And yet still it amazes me that our power is so unlimited.
When we believe in ourself we’ll raise the bar and energy level, and by then the rest will take care of it self.
